We have had an eventful 24 hours here in Urbandale. As you know, Jenica has been sick on and off for the past month (all of our kids have been). I took her to her pediatrician yesterday to bascially just reassure me that she was fine. She has no fever, cough, runny nose or anything. She has been waking up in the middle of the night and vomiting, and as a total over-reacter that I am, I took her to get checked out.
Long story short- there is a possibility that Jenica has a brain tumor that is causing pressure in her brain and causing her to vomit- only at night.
I cant even begin to tell you how I am feeling- because I honestly dont know. I feel on one hand like they are just over-reacting. Medicine is so complex....how can they just examine her quickly and say something like that?
On the other hand, I am devestated. I dont think their is a worse more out of control feeling than to have a sick child. I go back and forth in between believeing that everything is fine, and this is all a fluke, and having a mini panic attack at the thought of her being sick.
As a mother, I know that this has forever changed me. I am different. Even if all is well, and we live to have 3 healthy, amazing, grown children I will never forget this feeling. I understand a tiny sliver of what it would be to have a sick child, and will make a commitment to myself to help families that are affected by illness of a child more. There are plenty of organizations that head up efforts, and i will help whenever i am able.
We have a MRI scheduled on Monday the 27th- Joey and I have been calling multiple hospitals to have this date moved up. It looks as if we will head to the University of Iowa Hospital to have the MRI done. They are some of the leaders in the country with neurological diagnosis and treatment. They have also gone way out of their way to accomidate Jenica, and do as much leg work as possible to have her seen ASAP and get us answers to our questions. I will post more as soon as I know more. Right now we are just focusing on a healthy Jenica, with no more troubling episodes.
Thursday, April 16, 2009
Wednesday, April 15, 2009
TAX DAY
"You cannot legislate the poor into freedom by legislating the wealthy out of freedom. What one person receives without working for, another person must work for without receiving. The government cannot give to anybody anything that the government does not first take from somebody else. When half of the people get the idea that they do not have to work because the other half is going to take care of them, and when the other half gets the idea that it does no good to work because somebody else is going to get what they work for, that my dear friend, is about the end of any nation. You cannot multiply wealth by dividing it."
Dr. Adrian Rogers, 1931
On this tax day- as my father in law is joining the tea party, as I sign a check for $30,000 worth of "unexpected" taxes (above and beyond what we have already paid) and as I look into the future and what it will mean to my children, I am troubled.
This isnt about me being heartless, or not being compassionate- its about spending more then we have. I have already learned this lesson in my personal life- we dont live on credit, heck we dont even have credit cards- we pay our bills, we dont expect others to care for us. We dont spend more than we have......why in the world is the government ignoring this lesson that we have all learned? Im not finger pointing....I could care less about who or what is to blame- I just know that it has to stop.
Joey sat in the ER with Jenica for 4 hours last night and never was seen. Can you imagine as a parent how frustrating this is? A 3 year old in major pain- vomiting, crying, being left in the lobby for that amount of time? The scariest thought is if health care did get socialized. Our access to medical care would be non existent. TRUST ME ON THIS ONE. Its a certainty. I had Joey ask before he left if there was some reason that they were running so behind. The nurses answer was that this is typical- they didnt have any major trauma or anything- just a lot of people who get free healthcare clogging up the system. Its totally inexcusable. Its exhausting. Frankly, its scary.
Dr. Adrian Rogers, 1931
On this tax day- as my father in law is joining the tea party, as I sign a check for $30,000 worth of "unexpected" taxes (above and beyond what we have already paid) and as I look into the future and what it will mean to my children, I am troubled.
This isnt about me being heartless, or not being compassionate- its about spending more then we have. I have already learned this lesson in my personal life- we dont live on credit, heck we dont even have credit cards- we pay our bills, we dont expect others to care for us. We dont spend more than we have......why in the world is the government ignoring this lesson that we have all learned? Im not finger pointing....I could care less about who or what is to blame- I just know that it has to stop.
Joey sat in the ER with Jenica for 4 hours last night and never was seen. Can you imagine as a parent how frustrating this is? A 3 year old in major pain- vomiting, crying, being left in the lobby for that amount of time? The scariest thought is if health care did get socialized. Our access to medical care would be non existent. TRUST ME ON THIS ONE. Its a certainty. I had Joey ask before he left if there was some reason that they were running so behind. The nurses answer was that this is typical- they didnt have any major trauma or anything- just a lot of people who get free healthcare clogging up the system. Its totally inexcusable. Its exhausting. Frankly, its scary.
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
Ive been busy....
Nice excuse I know- but things quickly spiral into an uncontrollable craziness that makes blogging seem like the last thing on a never-ending list of things that wont get done. Things here are fine. Lots going on, tons of business decisions constantly being made, struggles between family and work, and finding harmony amongst it all has been taking a lot of time. We have been spending a lot of time trying to financially capitalize on the recession. Its a great time to by tax properties so that has kept us busy in anticipation of June 1.
From the outside Im sure it appears that Joey and I are just fumbling around, trying to juggle everything. Not to say that isnt occasionally the case, but for the most part we are extremely goal orientated. Which makes everyday decisions get kinda complex. I know I lost you there- Ill explain. Joey and I have big plans....BIG plans. Plans that involve him retiring from medicine, selling everything that we own and leaving the US. I know that it may sound like a crazy idea, but we want to simplify. Dont get me wrong, our home is lovely, I love that we have 3 cars, and I can hop into the Hummer when I get bored of the Infiniti. But its just STUFF, and it turns out that its not us owning our stuff, its our stuff owning us. The sheer expense of the upkeep, the mental space that is occupied by the care of luxury items is huge. So when it comes to decisions about putting in a pool playground, etc, etc, I am totally at a loss. Do we live for now, or do we life for the future? I know there is a happy medium, but I havent found it yet. Help please ! =)
Anyway- in exciting news....my sister had TWIN girls 2 weeks ago! Yea! I am an Aunt again! I love it and hope to meet them soon. They are beautiful.
School here is wrapping up, and I am trying to plan a few vacations for Joey and I to get away. It has been a crazy year (what year hasnt??) and although it seems like we travel a lot, its never just for the fun of it. It always involves work. With airfare soooo cheap right now I am kidnapping him off to some where relaxing and tropical. It will feel good to remember that I am married. We just dont have the time we would like to spend together. He is super busy with work, and when he has a break he is at the gym with beau at least 6xs a week. Speaking of health, I am running a marathon this weekend.....that ends in a mud pit- doesnt that sound like so much fun???? I am pumped. I am also thinking about running the dam to dam 20K. We will see- I have a ways to go before I can run that and not die, but I have 6 weeks to prep- so its possible.
Easter was good- we have had a month solid of sick kids at our house, and Easter was no exception, but even though it was quiet we had a blast. I think for the first day in over a month all of the kids are feeling good, and back to normal! Yea! I love spring!
From the outside Im sure it appears that Joey and I are just fumbling around, trying to juggle everything. Not to say that isnt occasionally the case, but for the most part we are extremely goal orientated. Which makes everyday decisions get kinda complex. I know I lost you there- Ill explain. Joey and I have big plans....BIG plans. Plans that involve him retiring from medicine, selling everything that we own and leaving the US. I know that it may sound like a crazy idea, but we want to simplify. Dont get me wrong, our home is lovely, I love that we have 3 cars, and I can hop into the Hummer when I get bored of the Infiniti. But its just STUFF, and it turns out that its not us owning our stuff, its our stuff owning us. The sheer expense of the upkeep, the mental space that is occupied by the care of luxury items is huge. So when it comes to decisions about putting in a pool playground, etc, etc, I am totally at a loss. Do we live for now, or do we life for the future? I know there is a happy medium, but I havent found it yet. Help please ! =)
Anyway- in exciting news....my sister had TWIN girls 2 weeks ago! Yea! I am an Aunt again! I love it and hope to meet them soon. They are beautiful.
School here is wrapping up, and I am trying to plan a few vacations for Joey and I to get away. It has been a crazy year (what year hasnt??) and although it seems like we travel a lot, its never just for the fun of it. It always involves work. With airfare soooo cheap right now I am kidnapping him off to some where relaxing and tropical. It will feel good to remember that I am married. We just dont have the time we would like to spend together. He is super busy with work, and when he has a break he is at the gym with beau at least 6xs a week. Speaking of health, I am running a marathon this weekend.....that ends in a mud pit- doesnt that sound like so much fun???? I am pumped. I am also thinking about running the dam to dam 20K. We will see- I have a ways to go before I can run that and not die, but I have 6 weeks to prep- so its possible.
Easter was good- we have had a month solid of sick kids at our house, and Easter was no exception, but even though it was quiet we had a blast. I think for the first day in over a month all of the kids are feeling good, and back to normal! Yea! I love spring!
Thursday, January 22, 2009
Im still kicking!
So I know that I have been absent from writing for quite some time- but no time for apologies- just back to work!
Since I have lasted posted- the holidays have come and gone- (they were awesome) we have had many fun family times, and Joey and I were able to get away to Florida for a little Hawkeye Bowl game fun. We stayed in Clearwater Beach- our hotel was right on the beach, and we had 3 balconies that looked over the ocean. I can honestly say I havent felt that relaxed and at peace since I became a Mom. Not that motherhood is so overly stressful- just that I havent been able to just let go, and trust the kids are fine. But I did this time......and it was great. Definitely a do-over.
I am also working full time again. I really like being out of the house and solving real world problems, but I miss the kiddos. It has been topped off by the fact that all 3 of them have been under the weather to varying degrees which has caused and ample amount of anxiety that I am not able to be at home watching their every move. Not like the kids are neglected- the have their Papa watching them in the AM, and Haylee takes over from 1-6 so I know they are pampered all day long.
Being a working Mom is not as easy as I thought it was- but I totally understand the need to use your brain- and I am looking forward to doing more when Jack heads off to preschool. I cant ever imagine working for someone else- but I know that in time I will develop a career, and that in and of itself excites me. Working for yourself is much harder then just having a boss and getting a paycheck- but it has its perks. This morning I was running about 5 minutes behind and told Joey I was worried about being a few minutes late to the morning huddle with all the girls. He just looked at me and laughed and said "its a good thing you own the company". Oh well- at least I know I have job security.....now if only I could get paid =)
Since I have lasted posted- the holidays have come and gone- (they were awesome) we have had many fun family times, and Joey and I were able to get away to Florida for a little Hawkeye Bowl game fun. We stayed in Clearwater Beach- our hotel was right on the beach, and we had 3 balconies that looked over the ocean. I can honestly say I havent felt that relaxed and at peace since I became a Mom. Not that motherhood is so overly stressful- just that I havent been able to just let go, and trust the kids are fine. But I did this time......and it was great. Definitely a do-over.
I am also working full time again. I really like being out of the house and solving real world problems, but I miss the kiddos. It has been topped off by the fact that all 3 of them have been under the weather to varying degrees which has caused and ample amount of anxiety that I am not able to be at home watching their every move. Not like the kids are neglected- the have their Papa watching them in the AM, and Haylee takes over from 1-6 so I know they are pampered all day long.
Being a working Mom is not as easy as I thought it was- but I totally understand the need to use your brain- and I am looking forward to doing more when Jack heads off to preschool. I cant ever imagine working for someone else- but I know that in time I will develop a career, and that in and of itself excites me. Working for yourself is much harder then just having a boss and getting a paycheck- but it has its perks. This morning I was running about 5 minutes behind and told Joey I was worried about being a few minutes late to the morning huddle with all the girls. He just looked at me and laughed and said "its a good thing you own the company". Oh well- at least I know I have job security.....now if only I could get paid =)
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